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Home thoughts from abroad... Shenanigans, gallivanting and more from Dave (Uncle Hedgehog), a part Pom/part Oz bloke living in Sydney  Me, recently... To sort: Life admin School stuff Diet planning Cooking again Currently reading: Nothing! Recent spins: Royksopp Kleerup Little Boots La Roux Other events ongoing: Playing with my MacBook Gym/running Balanced lifestyle Socially lying low Tennis No alcohol til July 12 City2Surf 9 August Incoming: One week til hols Hazy shades of winter My mates: Ian Jonathan Wayne Scally Canadian Jawn Tim G Muz Amuse or abuse me! Minkered: definition Minkered: illustration Comments by: YACCS HOME ARCHIVES
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Saturday, July 04, 2009
It's July. It's nearly the end of term. I'm exhausted.
Just finished our assembly performance with the kids yesterday and we were all knackered. The kids did a great job though and should be suitably proud. The parents loved it and the other teachers were impressed too. I can relax now til the end of term. This weekend though is already filling with disappointment. Part of that is probably me still, and my attitude of everything being flat. Part of that might be the lack of alcohol too, creating less opportunities for me to go out and have fun with mates it seems. But I spent today wandering around by myself, hoping for people to get back to me about catching up. Queue tumbleweed. The fact Wimbledon is on is a mixed blessing. Good in that it'll give me something to watch on telly tonight. The downside is that the courts are all booked up, so no tennis for Jamie and me this weekend. It looks like other possible get-togethers aren't going to happen either, so I guess I'll have to amuse myself. I'm going to go for a run tomorrow, and then gym with Bobby later in the afternoon - both of which will help. I have got a niggling shoulder injury though, which is starting to get a bit annoying. Hopefully that will sort itself out soon. I ended up going to bed this afternoon with tea and sudoku puzzles. If I'm finding a weekend hard to fill in the time with no mates around, how the hell am I going to amuse myself for the school holidays which start in a week's time? I'm over feeling so bloody lonely. Monday, June 15, 2009
Not even a week, and the next post is here.
I was wondering about compromise the other day. Well at least I think it's compromise. I wondered if I could have a relationship with someone who I didn't have really strong feelings for. I don't think I'm explaining this well so let me backtrack. A few times in my life I have met people and for want of a better phrase I've been consumed by them. I've felt so strongly about them that everything else has pretty much gone by the wayside except for them. It's ruined friendships and probably not been good for my mental health. I've let myself be controlled by them and the power they have over me, and it's done in my self-esteem. I become obsessed. So I was thinking, maybe it's better that for my next relationship I don't go for someone like that. I 'settle' for someone else. Someone nice. Someone that ticks all the boxes but doesn't tip me over that obsession precipice. I'm sure a strong friendship would grow. I'm sure even love could grow. I might even enjoy it. But one thing stops me. I know that if I were in a relationship with a 'Mr Settled-for' and a Mr Obsession turned up, I'd leave the nice guy in a second. In spite of my integrity I wouldn't be able to stop myself. I'm squirming even thinking about it because I hate that aspect of myself. Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Well it's the next post and I am over the cold - well pretty much. Except it turned out to be bronchitis and I ended up laid up off work for the best part of a week. So much for feeling so healthy after the half marathon. Anyway, I'm slowly getting back into the fitness regime after that, though I haven't actually run since the race. That's this weekend's job, along with some more tennis.
School seems just to be work, work, work at the moment. My program's due to be in to my boss; reports have to be finished by next week and I'm working on my class assembly item for the first week in July. I don't think I'll be out much this weekend to be honest. As I mentioned in the last post, the no drinking thing has been interesting - and not in a particularly good way. No drinking leads to not feeling like going out, which (apparently) leads to less opportunities to catch up with mates. Which ends up feeling like I have less mates in general, as I've alluded to previously on here. I'm trying to convince myself that friendships are cyclical, and I'm in a building phase. I'm not doing that great a job on myself just yet. In terms of meeting anyone that might turn out to be more than a friend, then cue tumbleweed. Lately I seem to be finding less and less people attractive to me, and also lately to a man they either are completely not interested or seem to lose interest very, very quickly. Not sure what's going on, but I'm not overly happy about it. Maybe I'm giving off the wrong vibes. The last two situations combined are leaving me feeling increasingly lonely. I've considered moving into a shared apartment to possibly counter that feeling, but it's such a gamble at the moment as I don't have anyone I know that needs a flat share right now. So, I guess I just have to hang in there. With everything. On a day to day basis I don't feel particularly depressed or miserable to be honest. Just flat. Everything just seems flat right now - and I'm not really sure how to counter that. Back to the drawing board I suppose. Sunday, May 24, 2009
Well we're now 4 weeks into term, and it does indeed seem to be dragging its heels. Not sure why. Maybe coz it's not so much fun at school due to the odd atmosphere amongst the staff. My one male mate at school has just resigned which is a shame - a month til he leaves and then I'm alone with a staff room full of Estrogen. Also three of the women at work are newly pregnant so guess what the topic of conversation will be til the end of the year? I'm craving adult conversation, but not just conversation limited to cravings, names and hormonal swings.
Mind you... the hormone swings might explain my moods a little. Last weekend was the half marathon - and as it turned out I had the run of my life! Not expecting to achieve my best-case scenario goal I did indeed make it, finishing in 1'39"46 which was 20 minutes up on last year and 10 minutes ahead of my previous best. Result! I was very happy with that. The split times were interesting too - I ran the second 10km just 8 seconds slower than the first and kept that same pace for the last 1.1km - consistency through the whole time. I finished in the top 25% of all racers, in the top third of all men and in the top third of men 40-44. Not bad at all, but wished I could have gone out to celebrate properly - this no alcohol lark is killing me! I've had an easy week this week but have ended up coming down with a head cold which is really tiresome. Haven't felt like this for over a year and I forget how good it is not being sick. Not much else to report. Socially nothing as I don't feel like going out when not drinking. Tennis continues. Gym continues. Life continues. More news as it happens. Hopefully I'll be over this cold by the next post! Sunday, May 03, 2009
May. Already. I seem to have skipped April on here, which is annoying as I was trying to keep the archives monthly again. Oh well.
It's probably best I skip over April anyway. Not the best month. Birthday wasn't the best day, but not for turning 44 reasons. Had a fling, behaved like a bit of a twat - and whaddya know, the fling suddenly ended! I need to take a good long look at how I behave sometimes. And a bloke behaving like a character out of Desperate Housewives is not a good look. Anyway, file away under 'Things not to repeat next time'. Though next time seems far away right now. Saw the Human League. Twice. (Though technically one of those times was in March). Fantastic. School finished, with me miraculously getting the permanent job at the school. Go me. Holidays. OK. Didn't do much. Tried to keep fit, but didn't eat well and due to some calf issues and being in a bit of a bad space re fling I didn't train as I should so half marathon won't be as good a time as I'd hoped. Did go to Tokyo for 3 days which was great. And now term 2 has started. 10 weeks to go. But a long 10 weeks. Lots of stuff to do at work. I'm off the booze too. No fun for Davie til July. That's all for now. Feels a bit like I'm treading water again - a cyclical theme for those that might still be reading from years back. Not unhappy, not really happy. Limbo. Meh. Monday, March 30, 2009
Nearly a quarter of the year has gone, nearly time for school holidays.
I'm back in that treading water/limbo place, where everyday seems to be about work or exercise. Which is OK. Socially things are slightly different. I feel like I've connected back with some mates where the connection had gone a bit stale. I still feel like something or someone is missing though. I just want to get through the next two weeks and then relax. 8 more days of teaching. But before that, I've got planning to finish and three (count em, three!) job applications. Which means it's time to get off here, and onto that stuff. I love autumn in Sydney. I want it to love me back this year. Saturday, March 14, 2009
Things are better. No real reason, but things just feel as though they're on the up. That's a good thing.
Still exercising like a loon. Still working hard but feeling guilty about not working harder. Still in control of my diet. Less than 4 weeks to the Easter hols. Better. :) |